allucinore:
friend: are you okay?
me: i’m fine
what i really mean: i can’t stop thinking about the scene in the raven king when neil and andrew are sitting on the bench in the locker room after neil got his first phone and andrew calls him and makes him listen as he tells him his parents are dead, he’s not fine, and nothing is going to be okay but he’s still neil josten and andrew is still the man who said he’d keep him alive and neil finally realized he didn’t have to run anymore because he found someone to put his trust in for the very first time and-
wesawbears:
As a coping mechanism in high school, Andrew recited poems that he memorized to himself, not because he cared about poetry but because the rhythm kept him grounded. Neil doesn’t know this until he has a panic attack and Andrew is whispering a poem against his neck. He doesn’t ask, but it jars him enough to breathe.
d-quintana:
no matter how many times it’s pointed out, the simple and obvious fact that neil josten and andrew minyard are in love will never stop hitting me like a tonne of bricks. they’re in love. they’re safe and happy and they spend the rest of their lives together. they have cats. they kiss each other every day. they burn toast and make each other coffee. they’re just out there living their living their lives together and for some reason that is the most amazing thing in the world to me
hemminicky:
booksandbellflowers:
neil josten absolutely uses baby talk around his cats and i refuse to believe otherwise
Andrew on the other hand has whole adult conversations with them and asks them for their opinion on the news. When they meow back he answers like they’d given him an elaborate response. Sir is the diplomatic one who tries to see both sides of an issue; King has controversial opinions and he isn’t gonna budge.
neilminyerd:
neilminyerd:
dentist: open up
neil: sometimes i get sad
dentist: thats not what i–
andrew: let him talk
nickyklose:
Soulmate au where everyone but your sm has grey eyes—and you only see color when you’ve started realizing the depth of your feelings for them. so neil stares mystified at the warm gold in andrew’s eyes on the bus and later in the hotel room when andrew bursts in neil’s blue knocks the wind out of him
syntheticwhoremones:
Does it ever hit you that Neil and Andrew never had that time in their lives which could be described as “before everything went to shit”? Their lives were just shitty… ever since they could remember……
sohereisthisasshole:
neil used to hide his gun under the pillow, right?
‘neil reached for a gun and hit andrew’s arm instead’
andrew is sleeping with his hand under neil’s pillow. that’s all thanks for coming to my ted talk goodnight
the first time Andrew looks at Neil with the "you're my answer" expression?? — Anonymous
palmettofoxden:
- It’s a subtle thing, so quick it could easily be missed.
- It’s not so much “you’re my answer” as it is “this is meant to last and it is terrifying how much I want it to.”
- And Andrew is angry enough that Neil made him feel like this and that he is terrified of losing Neil that the look isn’t so much a love-sick one as it is an annoyed one.
- Maybe it happens when Neil tells the whole truth, more to him than to the feds, and insists on being Neil Josten and staying with the team. When Andrew realizes that Neil is really going to stay with him and not disappear.
- Maybe it’s in the van when Neil says “Neil Abram Josten” and sounds like he’s clinging to this reality and staying with Andrew and the rest of the team. When, finally, Neil Josten is a real person that is going to stay with him and not a runaway lost cause or a pipe dream. But Neil’s too busy tracing the shape of Andrew’s key into his palm to even notice the way Andrew is watching him.
- Maybe it happens while Andrew is holding the package with the matching armbands he bought for Neil clutched against his chest, waiting for the right moment to hand them over, while Neil blathers on about their future and tells Andrew “Choose us” and Andrew is overwhelmed by how tempting those two words are.
- Maybe it happens when Andrew places Neil’s hand on his chest and Neil knows this isn’t a real yes and is more worried about Andrew’s comfort than how much he wants to touch Andrew.
- Maybe it happens when Riko raises his racquet to hit Neil and Andrew charges over on instinct to protect Neil because Neil is his future and for once Andrew actually has the possibility of a future beyond graduation and he is clinging to that and he won’t let anyone take that away from him.
anoasisinawasteland:
One Halloween, Neil went as a bamboo tree while giving Andrew, dressed like a koala, a piggy back ride. It’s the only time Andrew allowed getting one.
moisttortellini:
i love that you are always fully Aware of when andrew is in a scene because he’s the first thing neil always mentions like get a Grip josten
